My Messy Weight

I'm overweight! There it is folks. I'm over weight and I know it.

 It's ok, a large percentage of the population is overweight too, so that should make me feel better.

Buuuuut, it doesn't. I don't like being over weight. It's a battle, a struggle, an insecurity. At moments I deny it, at times I despise it, but often I accept it. It's not easy to accept something you don't like, but the fact is I have to accept it to do anything about it so here I go. Admitting it publicly so that I can engage you all in my journey, cause my guess is you may have the same problem.

In 2010 I was the highest weight I'd ever been. A year after having my daughter Mckenzie I was still hanging on to all the baby weight and then some...actually more of it was cheese queso and brownie weight than it was baby weight..buuuut, who's being technical. ;)

Anywhoo, I was at my largest weight and feeling mis-er-able! So, an awesome friend suggested weight watchers and I reluctantly joined. I was terrified that I would fail. I knew that if I joined a program like that and failed that there would be NO HOPE for this poor soul to have a waistline again. But, I joined anyways and began my journey. And two years of my weight loss struggle began. I went down, I went up..I hit milestones and bought new clothes. I learned how to eat better and learned to add exercise to my life. I finally after about two years and a MAJOR family move across the country later hit my goal weight and it was AWESOME!

Here is a picture journey of my weight loss before baby number 2.

Then....well, lets just say the good Lord wasn't concerned with my weight maintenance and I became pregnant with baby #2!! After 9 grueling months of pregnancy I once again didn't have a waist line.

Yep, certainly no waistline there...but I was "glowing" as people would say. Well the pregnancy glow has faded away and my little man will be 1 next month and I have YET to shed that post baby weight.

It's pretty frustrating actually, because if you know me, you know that it hasn't been for lack of trying. 

Isn't he cute?? He was well worth the extra pounds. But the extra weight does take a toll on me. Most days I feel like a mess. I feel hopeless regarding my weight and I can get down in the dumps over my pants not fitting or my love handles bulging, my arms waving back and my knees blending in with my quads (not a cute look for me) ha

Yes, sometimes when it comes to my body I think. "I'm just a Mess"

Weight loss comes easily for some people, I'm sad to admit I am NOT one of those people. I will forever have to be mindful of it, which frankly sucks!!! 

But you know what, I am Beautiful. I don't have to feel down on myself because I'm overweight. All I can ask of myself is to try to be healthy. 

To make good choices for myself. So I will be sharing the remainder of my weight loss journey with you all, because it's my bet that somewhere, someone if feeling like a total mess where their bodies are concerned and could use the encouragement. 

If that's you, you're not alone. 

Weight loss can be hard, but it doesn't have defeat you. One good choice leads to another good choice.

A lifetime of more good choices than bad will lead to health and hopefully your desired weight.

We can do this. Together!